Romantic love and suffering

There comes a time in most people's life when they start to really like a person and this is where I want to begin. This feeling that arises when you think of this person , where does it comes from, is it being self inflicted from a lack of love or do they see themselves in another? What's more important for me at least in the mean time is how to cope with these feeling in an intelligent way. There will be times when the person does something that will give you a sense of suffering in your life. This suffering isn't created by the other person but of your own will. Let this person be themselves and don't bet your satisfaction on them because when you don't see what you want to see, suffering will flourish in your mind.

Anxiety

For about a week or so I have been having anxiety and it has been affecting all areas of my life. I was having feelings of vertigo, tension headaches, sweating a lot and numbness if my hands,arms, legs. My anxiety had gone away for a long while and started up again recently. I have been able to control it and it seems to be gone. I will try my best not to let it affect my life again.

Ego Land

Ego.-Noun the “I” or self of any person; a person as thinking, feeling, and willing, and distinguishing itself from the selves of others and from objects of its thought.

Reality seems to feed on this misconception that we all are separate in terms of our existence. We tell ourselves , these thoughts are me, no one else feels my feelings or my thoughts. This thought process allows thoughts of superiority, selfishness and violence.

Everyday I slowly kill off a piece of my ego in hopes that one day it will cease to exist and the only thing left would be compassion for all living things.